my name is holly and I like to dwell on my negative emotions

I basically take a magnifying glass to every bad feeling I have and scrutinize the shit out of them. Ninety percent of the time I'm thinking about myself and that makes me a boring person. No time for interesting thoughts when I'm dwelling on negativity :(

Lucky Day finds

Last year I worked at a thrift store on Western Ave. It was mostly a horrible experience on account of my boss was a bi-polar crazy person with some intense girl-hate. But besides the tense atmosphere it was kinda great because I acquired some cool stuff!

Brooks and Dunn dad hat

Probably my best find. Turquoise sterling ring, I got for basically nothing. 

Also a fantastic find. Vintage tooled belt with sterling buckle. This was like 75 cents. I would like it more if I knew how to utilize a waist belt.

Mossimo for Target corduroy coat. New with tags. Almost $10 but eh, retail was like $49.95.

Of course I acquired a number of books. These were my favorite and the only ones I still have in my possession.

Vintage brass lamp and stained glass pencil cup for bedside table.

Eyeshadow palette and hair serum. Both retail for $50-ish. I got them for free.

Gold and sterling locket.

Western tee with patches.

Hankerchiefs

Vintage board games for Erik for Xmas. He loved them!! $10 for the both of them I think.

Leg warmers.

Frye leather bag, I sold on eBay for around $200.

PUZZLE!

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• I find mirrors reflect your perspective.

self portrait 2012

blue mason coffee

I met Erik on tinder and I have zero shame about that lol
We agreed to meet at a place called The Blue Mason for, as he referred to it, a "fika" which is a swedish term meaning coffee and possibly some pastries.
I walked in and he was sitting straight ahead. I remember him looking quite pleased to see me (he thought I was pretty). Knowing him now and how subdued he is, I'm amazed at just how overjoyed he actually looked haha makes me happy!
He ordered me a large coffee and I didn't bother telling him I didn't like coffee, so I had to sit there and pretend to drink it the entire time.
The conversation was extraordinary, I remember talking about the homeless people in Utah lol.

The Blue Mason is definitely my favorite coffee shop ever!

the red chair facing forward is where Erik was sitting when I first laid eyes on him 

Erik got me this sticker the other day "for scrapbooking"

sunsphere

We spent a lovely saturday afternoon downtown with Lori and Brandon. Calhouns on the river for salads and wings, the sunsphere (my first time) for some views, and the Peter Kern Library (also a first).

the growlers

@ the mill and mine. $20. They didn't play Someday but they did play Pet Shop Eyes...

making sure my skirt isn't too short before I left lol

I can't stop eating today! Make it stop!!

taking care of numero uno

This girl is almost 27 years old. Getting another year older is always somewhat surprising to me, for someone who suffers from extreme anxiety, I don't think of my future much at all. As a child I don't think I ever looked past high school graduation, weird. But, long story short, last year, while looking in the rearview mirror I noticed a line on my forehead. I cried of course. But now I have about five fine lines on both sides of my forehead. Talk about rapid growth rate!

I've been using a night cream my mother gave me but in all honesty, it was a cheap shitty cream. So I decided to treat myself to some skincare products.

fine lines (curse you)

new night cream and vitamin c serum, purchased at tj maxx

Decided to curl my hair for the first time in a year:

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during

after

I'm really trying to get back into that high gear, taking care of myself mode. Life is more exciting and I'm more active when I feel as if I'm presenting my best possible self to the world.

Summer is looming!!

Free People bodycon dress from Karm Thrift. Hopeful summer wear!

I am mary poppins

Before and after of scenes in the living space. The difference may not seem too stark because CLUTTER