Sad Boy :'(

Erik has already been having the worst luck this year. More setbacks in the past two days than all of the last two years! It makes my heart sad seeing him so down and out <3 p="">

Irritable Holly

I'm literally always pissed off at every stranger I cross paths with. Not a good thing when working customer service.

Slow old people. Can't work a credit card machine. "Didn't ring up, must be free!", "this is the fastest machine in town!", "You're out of coffee.", 40$ cash back when I have no cash.

Anger.

I need chill pills. Lots of them.

my name is holly and I like to dwell on my negative emotions

I basically take a magnifying glass to every bad feeling I have and scrutinize the shit out of them. Ninety percent of the time I'm thinking about myself and that makes me a boring person. No time for interesting thoughts when I'm dwelling on negativity :(

WHY did I get rid of this shirt

remember when i used to be funny and had a personality?

sad.

Breakups are so very hard. Especially when my former counterpart doesn't seem to care about losing me.
Trying to stay positive is hard when everything in this damn town reminds me of him. He was my Knoxville, plain and simple.
Come hell or high water, I need to get the hell out of here!

she hasn't done much, why is she so exhausted

Slow moving. Inattentive. Dull. Constantly snacking. Shows a lack of motivation.

BLAH. That's how I feel. Just straight up blah. 

It takes everything in me to apply makeup to my face. Which is why I don't!

I dropped my phone in an old bowl of milk beside my bed. Everything's cool though, it still works I think.

Was supposed to go hiking this morning with Joseph but instead I shoved my phone underneath the mattress and just blew everything/everyone off.

Not feeling it today, okay?

Feelings

This whole blog has just become selfies selfies selfies. Because I'm lazyyyy. Just wait until I get insurance ;) (lol, only I will ever understand what that means) (hopefully)

But yeah, rejection is the prominent feeling this week. It's hard for me, as a person who rarely puts herself out there, to get rejected. Quite the blow to the self esteem. I'll live though :)

humidity hate

So Mesa is a dry heat. As we all know.
Here in Philadelphia, the temp doesn't get quite so high but the humidity, you guys it's terrible.

1. I have acne now (like what the heck)
2. I'm forced to wash my hair almost every day.
3. When I go to the gym I actually sweat and then my clothes take ten years to dry.
4. Where are the swimming pools?


On the other hand my skin and hair seem softer so theres that.


It's weird living here and I cannot believe how well I'm adjusting. I love my family and my house almost to a fault, but I've felt next to no homesickness. I don't know if it's because I still feel like I'm just on vacation or what but I ain't complaining.


I miss having fruit though!! Today I went into a Whole Foods and felt like crying cause I couldn't afford rainier cherries

def hypersensitive to caffeine

1. The fact that my left thigh and left arm is fatter/bigger than my right, is stressful.
2. A year later, FINALLY I finish the border (just the border) of my grandiose cross stitch.
3. I will never cross stitch a bird.  I hate cross stitches with birds.
4. I have to work tomorrow :'(
5. Still need to quit my job (scared)
6. No one will hike Camelback with me.
7. My brothers went on a "no girls" camping trip, of all the gall
8. I'm going garage sale-ing with my mother tomorrow morning
9. Running incline on the treadmill is killer!
10. Annnd I do not enjoy when people make me watch their kids and don't pay me like they said they would!

Good Night

can i complain to you right quick?

I've felt really really out of it these past few days.

I sleep like 3 to 4 hours a night and get headaches during the day because of it.

I just wanna feel normal and stop being an insomniac.

Oh and I have a weird dry patch of skin on my eyelid that won't go away!!

anyway

Some positives in my life:

I've started to really enjoy going to the gym.

I got a tan in the Dominican.

Oh yeah, did I mention I went to the Dominican Republic for spring break? It was a blast!

I found the cutest shirt at walmart...Iloveitsomuch youdontevenknow

And I might get a job with the airlines

What the heck am I crying about??

I MISS KYLE

I really felt his absence at a cousin party last week. He was my anti-social buddy but now I have no one! I sat by myself and felt like an unfriendly weirdo.

BOO

dry skin is such a pain

Everyday it goes like this, I put my makeup on feelin' good, no issues. An hour later I look in the mirror and I have dry patches all over my face.

I h8 lyfe

Google's answer? Exfoliate, moisturize, repeat

Well guess what? My skin is so dang sensitive, it can't deal with exfoliators rough enough or moisturizers heavy enough to actually work.
I break out in rashes, and then I have to use hydro cortisone cream which in turn causes my  face to turn into a bright red cherry blow-pop when I work out at the gym.

I can't deal.............

why do I buy waterproof makeup?

I have a tough time remembering to wash my face as it is, throw in waterproof makeup and that crap ain't never comin' off my face

grody to the max

I'm beat guys
I hate having responsibilities, they suck!
I also hate having to make friends with my coworkers cause they don't seem particularly friendly, most of em anyway.
Tell me again why I work at a makeup store when I hate girls.

school 9-10
ulta 11-4
rockzone 4:30-9

UGH
woe is me

why do i have to be so unfortunately poor?

I want a pair of these so BADLY.

Must wait a few years for chance on ebay.

elvis from san francisco

$3 on a not-so-nice street in San Fran
holler.

real cool walker

Today I was running late, and I really detest walking into class late, everyone turns around and stares. Two strides behind me I noticed a boy in the same class. Yes, I thought, someone later than me. But nope, this boy proceeded to hike through the desert MCC landscape, clambering/power walking over the numerous five foot hills that were not meant to be walked through. Way to ruin everything nerd.
That kid really did not want to be late!

death

crying eating a cheeseburger

Blaaaah I'm home alone right now, terrified, and I don't even know where Kensie is to protect me. Not that she would, that dog hates me.

My face is zitty, my mom weaved my hair today, and I have a giant math test on Monday. The end.
And that's a clay mask on my face btw.